Losing it All and Starting Over

Opening the Eyes of My Heart By: Susan Deborah Schiller  in the series, "Conversations with Daddy" I wanted to change the world. Ever since I was a little child I dreamed of going to foreign lands, solving the problems of world hunger and clean water for at least one community. It didn't seem fair that […]

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The Code: Making the Dark Light By: Susan Schiller "All Truth is God's Truth," was the first lesson I learned in college. Truth is the code that unlocks our inheritance – that launches us into a radical lifestyle – the one that Jesus modeled for us, and then told us, "You can do even greater […]

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  You Shouldn't Have to Stand Alone By: Susan Deborah Schiller No one heard my silent cries but him. He told me it would always be that way. And then he grinned, that mocking, smirk – more like a half-smile, except that it held no warmth and made me shiver. He was not only my […]

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How to Help a Survivor Get Over the Trauma & Grief By: Susan Deborah Schiler Surviving sociopathic or narcissistic abuse is a challenge the majority of us do not understand. The survivor is usually a female and she feels all alone. The months leading up to and following her escape are perilous. The sociopath moves […]

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This Astonishing Light By: Susan Deborah Schiller There is a genocide happening today. It's a mass murder of dreams, visions, and the destinies of people who, like I once did, feel "dead" inside. It's like they are moving through life doing all the right things, but missing out on what they are created to be and […]

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Finding the Priceless Pearl By: Susan Deborah Schiller Underneath the pain and grief lies your greatest blessing. A pearl of great price is formed layer upon layer. Abandonment floods the soul with a priceless opportunity to choose to see beyond the pain. Rejection's relentless persecution and torment crush the soul, but yet you choose to […]

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Your Valley of Trouble is a Door of Hope By: Kimberly Dimick Many of us see our own brokenness as an end to life, but, author, Glennon Doyle Melton, shares with us that it is only the beginning. Grief has a way of opening up parts of our lives to unexpected joy and hope. It […]

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Reinvention through Resurrection By: Susan Deborah Schiller Previous Chapter: The Suicide Notice "…Hope knows that if great trials are avoided, great deeds remain undone and the possibility of growth into greatness of soul is aborted.… When tragedy makes its unwelcome appearance and we are deaf to everything but the shriek of our own agony, when courage flies […]

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The Kaleidoscope Effect By: Susan Deborah Schiller “The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a […]

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Laughter is not only powerful medicine, it's toxic to the real enemy: Shame By: Susan Deborah Schiller I am a warrior, but inside this strong woman is a child with a soft heart that has been punctured by arrows of rejection, pierced by envy and hate, and nearly slaughtered by neglect. It has been a battle to […]

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Nothing is Impossible By: Susan Deborah Schiller "There is nothing you cannot do," says Tao Porchon-Lynch, 96-year old yoga instructor and ballroom dancer. You may wonder what a yoga instructor has to do with surviving sociopathic abuse. How can her version of "impossible" possibly relate to your living nightmare? You've been beaten for over two […]

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The Ride of Your Life By: Susan Deborah Schiller "Saddle up your horses and get ready to ride! It's the ride of your life," my heavenly Father whispered. It was early morning and bitterly cold and I was snuggled under a fuzzy blanket writing in my journal. Until then, I had never been around horses, […]

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Plunging into the Heart of the Plague By: Susan Deborah Schiller Today I finish driving about 2000 miles across country, from my childhood home town to my present home town. It's nice to visit the 1st World but 3rd World living is where I really love to be. There's a plague all around me, but the people […]

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I Call Upon the Lion of Judah By: Susan Schiller "You will meet evil face-to-face and you will not like it. You will be betrayed and abandoned by the people you love, even those you thought were your best friends. Most of all it will be lonely, very lonely. Do you still want to follow […]

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Renewal by Design By: Susan Deborah Schiller Renewal, for me, happens when I enter the unknown.  For me, it's "renewal by design" as I intentionally trade the safe route for the unknown.  One early spring-like day, I was on my first "dot-dot-dot" road, which means sometimes there's a path and sometimes not. The map uses dots to warn you the road will […]

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Dressing the Invisible Wounds By: Susan Deborah Schiller June is National PTSD Awareness Month! Everything changed when I met an ordinary farmer from Oregon. It was at one of those advanced trainings that I found someone who knew someone. He was an ordinary farmer in Oregon. He understood sociopathic abuse very well and he began to […]

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Evil's Silent Accomplice By: Susan Deborah Schiller "In my hands I have a piece of piano wire and I'm going to slice off your breasts with it… Next, I'm going to put a bullet in the back of your head and watch your body drop into the rock quarry," threatened my husband, as he emphasized the […]

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      The words you speak become the house you live in. — Hafiz A life story chapter by: Susan Deborah Schiller Many of us are living as widows and orphans while God has promised us abundant life. Could it be that the experience of poverty, whether in finances, opportunities, or quality of our relationships […]

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Mission Impossible By: Susan Deborah Schiller Sharing a condensed version of a chapter in my memoir… My husband and I were only 40-some years old when life as we had known it ground to a sudden halt. We both lost our jobs and moved to the wilderness following a severe spinal injury. After two years […]

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Create Your Own Jail Break By: Susan Deborah Schiller  Standing up to Sociopaths – A Collection of Essays Today's write to freedom activation will show you how to tell a story that will break a prisoner's chains. Storytelling, at an empathetic level, with a little bit of informal education about real evil, can arm ordinary people to […]

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