A Secret Medicine

Star Songs

"There is a secret medicine given only to those who hurt so hard they can't hope. 

The hopers would feel slighted if they knew." — Rumi

Love heals and joy transforms. What gives you joy? Let's go there…



into Heaven

I hear him

Faltering footsteps I stumble forward

Spinning through constellations, we count the singing stars.

— Susan Schiller, a fibonacci poem

I heard His invitation to count the stars with Him, and suddenly I was in a different realm.

It was a circular room, high up in the heavens, with windows that gave us a 360-degree view. My Father invited me to stand with Him at a control panel-type-of-thing, in the midst of this ocean of fiery, brilliant stars. It was almost like a ship that He navigated through the constellations, but it's really hard to describe. It seemed so very real, and my mind could only take a few seconds before I was back "home" in my room, praying… with a new sense of wonder.

He counts the stars
    and calls them all by name. – Psalm 147:4

While the morning stars sang in chorus
    and all the angels shouted praise? – Job 38:7

Could it be that joy is the secret medicine? A Creator who is so fully confident in Himself that He invites us to count the grains of sand, the stars, who puts mathematical patterns and special sequences into His artwork… could it be that these impossible situations He puts us in are to INFUSE us with heavenly JOY?

Love heals. Joy transforms. 

Jesus, for the JOY set before him, endured the cross. Nothing can separate us from His love. Nothing. In my life lately God's asking me to once again leave the familiar, just as I was getting comfortable! Once again, I'm going to a new country, a new land. It's scary. It's risky. Some of my friends hurt for me, want to hold me back, and caution me to choose an easier path.

Haven't I had enough? I wonder if Abraham also wondered such things… wasn't it enough he had to leave Ur, did God have to make his wife barren, too? All the water well fights. Kidnapping of his nephew's family. And then Mount Moriah… when it seemed even God was hostile!

What if God is simply inviting you into a greater story?

And to help you through to the next chapter, he's inviting you to share the mystery of His joy. Maybe he wants you to count the stars… or to consider the sunflower's mathematical miracle… or to create a Fib poem… or to gaze into the Heavens and be astounded!

Is there something you can do today, to accept His invitation to INFUSE you with JOY, this secret medicine that Rumi says is only given to those who have lost their Hope. The people who have not experienced the depth of these trials, also, do not get to experience the height of His JOY! Rejoice, if you're encountering the greater trials!

Isn't that how Olympic champions look at the grueling races? Rule in the midst of your enemiesGrin in the face of disaster, Susan!

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With all my love,


Susan Schiller knows how it feels to lose everything: marriage and family, church and reputation, finances and businesses, and more. Susan's upcoming, interactive memoir, "On the Way Home," tells the story of how she came to be known as "the most abused woman" her counselors had yet met and how she is learning to navigate to freedom and fullness.  

Today Susan helps people write their life stories, unearthing the treasures of their past and sowing them into their future, creating new family legacies.

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{ 14 comments… read them below or add one }

Joe December 30, 2016 at 11:36 am

I appreciate your articles. I just got out of a 18 month relationship with a somatic narcissist who could drink, cheat and lie with the best of them.  I'm 56 years old and I didn't even know what a somatic narcissist was, let alone have to live under the same house with one….for 18 months. 


Susan Schiller December 30, 2016 at 7:53 pm

I am glad you are out of this type of evil relationship, Joe.

18 months is a long time but you will be okay, in time.


edith gomez November 14, 2016 at 6:49 pm

thank you for your wonderful courage to stand in faith ! what happen to you  is a story that others like myself lived through or are in it! all that you write is salvation 'deliverance'and redemtion in jesus christ! thanh you edith


Susan Schiller November 18, 2016 at 7:15 am

Oh Edith, your words are a comfort and encouragement to me. Thank you for adding your strength here today! God bless you 🙂


my heart's love songs November 7, 2013 at 10:48 pm

I enjoy the Fibonacci form but have been drawn to free verse or prose more often than not the past year or so. Maybe I'll be able to flex my form muscles a little this month.

Truly, I love your poem, especially "we count the singing stars." Stunning!



Susan Schiller November 8, 2013 at 6:59 am

♥ That means a lot, Dani – thanks! ♥


Bleubeard and Elizabeth November 6, 2013 at 9:12 pm

Well Susan, I AM a mathematician, and I love the fibonacci poem.  In fact, I had never heard of this type of poem before, even though I have known about fibonacci patterns for years.  Stunning photos, too. 

I might add, that even though conch shells are the most familiar of the fibonacci formations, pineapples are good examples, too.  There are SO many examples in nature.


Susan Schiller November 6, 2013 at 9:17 pm

That is fascinating, Elizabeth! The pineapple, too… wow, that does make sense. I love discovering new mysteries – thanks so much for sharing!


Terri November 6, 2013 at 7:18 pm

I love this, will view Art Everyday 🙂 


Susan Schiller November 6, 2013 at 8:01 pm

Thank you, Terri – have a good day! 🙂


Kama November 6, 2013 at 5:53 am

What a lovely idea. Thank you for sharing. I am going to have to give this a try. Yours is lovely 🙂


Susan Schiller November 6, 2013 at 6:00 am

Hi Kama,

Thanks so much for stopping in today – I hope you enjoy creating your own Fib 🙂


brook November 6, 2013 at 5:51 am

This is wonderful. I will click on Art Everyday. Thanks!


Susan Schiller November 6, 2013 at 5:59 am

Hi Brook,

Art Everyday is an active group of very talented women – I think you’ll enjoy meeting some of them. Thanks for stopping by today!


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