On the Way Home
On the Way Home
By: Susan Deborah Schiller
For I am about to do a brand-new thing. See, I have already begun! Do you not see it? I will make a pathway through the wilderness for my people to come home. I will create rivers for them in the desert! – Isaiah 43:19
"My specialty is knives." I recalled the man's words as he looked me directly in the eye, searching for the faintest hint of weakness. A slight twitch maybe, or perhaps a sweaty palm. I knew the game well. It always came down to this point, a battle of wills. Each time he devised a little more sinister description of how he would use the knives, beginning with my feet and working upward.
I hadn't failed the test yet and he always thanked me, assuring me the prayers were making a difference, and that his urges to rape were growing less frequent. Our pastor was pleased with his right hand man's progress, for his amazing charismatic gifts were in strong demand, along with the dramatic signs and wonders that followed.
It's the beginning of the end, for me. The end of every illusion I once had about faith, family, and religion.
Within my church and community, I had discovered a covert organization whose existence thrives because "nice, busy people" politely turn their heads. Unbeknownst to the majority of people, it's been in operation for thousands of years, but never has it been as active as it is now, in these "last days".
All my life I had been a "nice Christian girl" and never bucked any system. Now I'd uncovered a sinister web of deception threatening my life and those I love. My friends began to "accidentally" die and my turn may be next. Those who ask questions end up missing.
The answers, I was to find, come from within. The Kingdom of Heaven is within us. Sometimes we have to be physically asleep to the cares of our earth-world to see and hear what is happening behind the scenes.
“In a dream, for instance, a vision at night,
when men and women are deep in sleep,
fast asleep in their beds—
God opens their ears
and impresses them with warnings
To turn them back from something bad they’re planning,
from some reckless choice,
And keep them from an early grave,
from the river of no return." – Job 33:15-18
My quest for Truth unraveled as my night visions ushered me through portals in my dreams, where I discovered the lessons to thrive instead of mere survival. I recorded these dreams in my journals, and as I learn to apply the truth to my life, I find I am co-creating my world and reinventing myself. Now I'm beginning to live my very best life. I want to experience all of life to the fullest! Do you, too?
I believe that sharing our life stories is the best way we can all become fully human, shedding our fear and shame, and seeing the beauty in every living being.
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With all my love,
Susan Schiller knows how it feels to lose everything: marriage and family, church and reputation, finances and businesses, and more. Susan's upcoming, interactive memoir, "On the Way Home," tells the story of how she came to be known as "the most abused woman" her counselors had yet met and how she learned to navigate to freedom and fullness.
Today Susan helps people write their life stories, unearthing the treasures of their past and sowing them into their future, creating new family legacies.
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