I See You

You are Seen

By: Susan Schiller

In the series, "Love from Papa"

My daughter, I see you. I see you peering into the mist, as if through a fog of twisted notions: Half-truths, false-beliefs, and shattered illusions that block you from seeing your full inheritance. I see you tentatively stepping out of the shadowlands of doubts, worries, anxieties, and fears. Scarcity has scared you in more ways than simply not having enough.

I see you trying. I see your blazing hope, especially in the darkness of massive injustice and broken trust. I see the bruises from your efforts to climb higher.

I see you shaking from the effort to reach the next peak. Your contorted features reveal the depth of your perplexity, as you wonder, why is it so hard to simply believe and to receive? You ponder why it's not working, to simply speak to the mountain and watch it effortlessly be cast into the sea.

My daughter, you are fresh from the battle and your wounds are incurable by man's methods. All you need is here, in My presence. Abide in Me. My Home has many rooms and I've prepared a place for you.

In the stillness, in the silence and the solitude we will walk and talk together, right through the muck and mire of this wickedness. You are beginning to remember who you are. You are coming out into the Light, leaving the Shadowlands behind. You are forging a pathway through the mountains, not because you failed in moving the mountain, but because there are golden treasures in the bowels of the mountain to be discovered.

If only you could see you as I see you… your wreckless faith, even though it seems like you're hanging on by a ragged thread, makes you STUNNING in My eyes!

If you only knew the hidden value of suffering and the incredible blessings that are yours. Justice is coming, my dear one. Leap into the abyss of despair. You will find Me there.

I see you. I hear you crying out for justice and being thrown to the wolves. Tell your story, sweet one. Start a chain reaction of spontaneous prayer and amplify your voice as this cry rings through the heavens and reaches even down into the bowels of the earth. Tell your story – that's how you walk out into the Light.

Come deeper in. Let go of the old need to hide. There's more for you, sweet one. In Me abide.

 

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With all my love,

Sue

Susan Schiller knows how it feels to lose everything: marriage and family, church and reputation, finances and businesses, and more. Susan's upcoming, interactive memoir, "On the Way Home," tells the story of how she came to be known as "the most abused woman" her counselors had yet met and how she learned to navigate to freedom and fullness.  

Today Susan helps people write their life stories, unearthing the treasures of their past and sowing them into their future, creating new family legacies.

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Jennifer Neyhart January 24, 2014 at 11:28 am

I love everything about this post. Thank you!

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Susan Schiller January 24, 2014 at 1:07 pm

You’re welcome, Jennifer – How nice to see you here. Thanks for your encouraging words 🙂

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Sharon O'Day December 9, 2013 at 8:04 pm

Your words take me on a journey each time I read them, Sue.  It's not a place I travel to regularly because you and I have chosen different lives to lead here.  However, it is a journey I make gladly because I learn so much from what you're processing.  Thank you for letting me go along on piggyback on little segments of your travels …

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Susan Schiller December 9, 2013 at 8:12 pm

You’re a true mother to many of us, Sharon, and I’m honored each time we can share our words, our hearts. When women from diverse paths meet to listen to each other’s stories, there is a mending of the world itself that takes place, as I see it.

I often think of you Sharon, and as you know, I cherish the mile markers you point out to as we follow you… you make this walk, this climb, seem doable! Thank you so much 🙂

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Linda December 6, 2013 at 11:15 pm

I've been to the abyss of despair, actually, it was the turning point, although I did not know it at the time.

But, today, I can still remember and point to that moment, that pit of despair, that place, that even Moses faced…
     Numbers 11:15 So if You are going to
     deal thus with me, please kill me at once,
     if I have found favor in Your sight, and do
     not let me see my wretchedness.”

Yes!  I want to use "adversity as my updraft"!!  Wow, that is a good word right there.

I don't want to stay in regret.   I truly want to fly that thermal that the eagles use to go higher and higher.
Lord, take me there.  I don't see it from where I stand.

 

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Susan Schiller December 7, 2013 at 6:31 am

Hi Linda – I’m so glad to see you again!

A “turning point” – isn’t that really the definition of repentance, to turn completely around? As I fell asleep last night I was thinking about how blessed I am to have suffered so deeply (my abyss was bottomless, it seemed) because it showed me my own wretchedness, even in the midst of being abused by others… so I could not simply blame my circumstances or other people, you know?

Slowly I began to see myself as God does, and the first part of that – the wretchedness – was mind-numbing awful, but very quickly replaced by extraordinary mercy, grace, and unconditional love! It was in the context of LOVE that Papa God showed me this. And immediately He gave me a knew vision of myself – a portrait of Love and Hope and Freedom and Acceptance….

If it weren’t for the abyss of despair I would have missed out on the greatest gifts!

Linda, what do you need to release in order to fly higher? What do you need, to you feel, to embrace the mystery of God?

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Linda December 7, 2013 at 12:36 pm

I'm not in despair now. But I thought I would be much more used by Father. Another school, a Fatherheart A school… And here i am at starbucks. It reminds me of the time after we were in Totonto with all that "exclusive" training. 

To fly… What would I do? Speak, preach, encourage, teach, travel. I like the writing, but i come alive with an audience and the Holy Spirit!

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Susan Schiller December 7, 2013 at 12:55 pm

I like hearing those words, Linda: “I come alive with ….”

I’m coming to believe that it’s the ordinary events and people and places and times when we have the opportunity to most “come alive”. Please forgive me in advance if I’m totally off track here, because online communication is so much “less” than face-to-face! But I’m trying to go for heart-to-heart here, with God’s help.

Linda, what does it mean, “to fly,” for you?

When I began to “come alive,” myself, I began to automatically think of things I could “do”. What’s next? I used to think. And that was a zig-zag approach to coming alive, as I look back on it now.

For me, today anyway, coming alive is a state of being joyful, creative, and simply breathing deeper. Seeing more colors, hearing more sounds, and being more fully present in the moment. It’s a deeper place, a place of confidence… having a sound mind and less fear.

The “being” isn’t confined to a time of soaking prayer or a place, like a conference…. those are externals?

My time in the wilderness, away from all the external props I used to rely heavily on…. began to teach me what who was living inside me… right down deep into the core of my being. That I’m not alone – never alone – is a cornerstone of my faith. I abide in Him and He abides in me.

I believe it’s this state of being – this utter joy that we’re never alone – that rebirths our faith; it resurrects our true identity as royal daughters. And then flying is natural, for it’s the way we’re designed. I’m just moving into this new grace, myself. Learning. Enjoying. Growing.

The desires of your heart – to be with an audience, to be with people that you resonate with, who challenge you and who you challenge – I believe that’s all part of your destiny. You are such an encourager, Linda – you glow so brightly. You have our Father’s/Mother’s heart. I want to sit at your feet and listen to what you have to share.

You have often given me grace to fly, Linda, and I’m so grateful for you!

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Susan Schiller December 6, 2013 at 10:18 am

SMALL STRAWS IN A SOFT WIND by MARSHA BURNS:

 

If you will release the issues of life and trust Me, I will release you from bondage.   And, you will experience more spiritual freedom than you ever thought possible.  It is My desire that you be absolutely free–free to be all that I have created you to be and to do all that I have called you to do.  Let go and be free, says the Lord.  You will never be the same.  

 

Proverbs 4:23 Keep your heart with all diligence, For out of it spring the issues of life. 

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Cyn Rogalski December 4, 2013 at 9:12 pm

Yet again, Susan, the Lord is using you to lovingly draw me back to His Arms.
I so appreciate you allowing Him to speak to my heart thru you.
You may not know the full extent of my gratefulness this side of Heaven, but rest assured He will let you know, in His On Way.
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Susan Schiller December 4, 2013 at 9:16 pm

Always know, Cyn, that you are never far from my thoughts. I don’t know all that you are experiencing right now, but I know you’re on a steep climb because you are pursuing with your utmost for His highest! xxxoooxxx   Hugs…

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Bonnie Gean December 4, 2013 at 6:35 pm

You couldn't have picked a better day to make such a post!  I got a late start and had so many errands, outside the office.

While I did manage to get a blog post and video done today, I still feel as if I didn't do enough!

I needed to hear these words!  Thank You!

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Susan Schiller December 4, 2013 at 7:12 pm

I can relate to such a day, Bonnie – bless you! <3

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Beth Hewitt December 4, 2013 at 2:40 pm

Hey Susan, 

It's like I needed to hear this today.  What beautiful words, you write so eloquently.  I could have read on forever.

 

Thank you, 

 

Beth 🙂

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Susan Schiller December 4, 2013 at 3:27 pm

Hi Beth, it’s so nice to see you here – thank you for visiting today!

It’s great to meet a fellow traveler on this road 🙂

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