Giving My All

The art of dawdling and wandering leads to childlike wonder and awe

By: Susan Deborah Schiller

The Daily Practice: To discover beauty and truth within the mystery of an ordinary day and to craft the experience in words.

This cormorant rookery has become a sacred place for me, as I quietly glide among the empty nests. I remember the day, last season, when my husband and I wandered out of the busy waterway and into this bustling nursery.

Whenever scarcity or insecurity tries to invade my mind, I remember these images and it recharges me with the awe and wonder of that day. I harness the energy, using it to discharge the illusion of scarcity and poverty mentality and to see as God sees.

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The cormorants share the same reservoir with fishermen of all species. There are probably more than a hundred trees full of dozens of nests. Each nest houses 1-3 young ones. Adults zoom from water to nest and back to water, tirelessly tending their young.

Do they worry, do they fret, do they fear there may not be enough?

Even with the eagles, hawks, herons, ducks, geese, and humans all fishing nearby. There's always enough. Nature has been designed to balance these things out.

This is my Father's world. He owns all the lakes, the mountains, and the cattle on a thousand hills. All the silver and all the gold are His. 

The internet, to me, sounds like that busy cormorant rookery. So many voices, so many sales pitches, so many books being released. I feel so small. It's tempting to step aside and let someone else – a better voice, a smarter person – share my message.

I am His child. The world's system once seduced me to give it my all. My energy fed the dreams of other people, bigger and more powerful people.

But what if God wants "my all" instead? What if I were to give Him everything… my time, energy, resources… all that I have. And simply come to Him every day and lay it before Him, saying "Abba, it's all yours. I'm yours. What shall we do today?"

Is that what it means, to bloom, even if you're in the middle of a wilderness with no one to witness your work?

Sometimes the most perfect specimens of beauty are hidden in the shadows, in places hardly anyone chooses to look. These are places of awe and wonder, just as great in our Father's eyes as any event marked in history on television or radio.

When I live in a state of wonder and awe – like a child – my soul is recharged FULL of life. If I harness that energy with faith and focus, I can laser the lies and smash the illusions and see all the Goodness around me with eyes of wonder and awe. That's life and more life!

This trip to the reservoir, in the surprise of the cormorant rookery and the joy of the cactus flower, has reminded me that God is everywhere, in all things, and that connects us all somehow. Deep inside my heart I'm blossoming in that out-of-the-way place, and its all for Him and whoever He guides to share the experience with me.

For me, this is the art of dawdling and wandering, peering into the shadows… being childlike, filled with wonder and awe.

Do you take time for dawdling, wandering, and peering into the shadows? What have you seen and discovered? Have you recorded it, to invest the truth – like seeds – into your future, making it part of your legacy?

Living the adventure and choosing love today,


Susan Schiller knows how it feels to lose everything: marriage and family, church and reputation, finances and businesses, and more. Susan's upcoming, interactive memoir, "On the Way Home," tells the story of how she came to be known as "the most abused woman" her counselors had yet met and how she learned to navigate her way out of hell to a rich and satisfying life. In her lifetime, Susan has served in duties ranging from home school mom – to pastor –  to full-time deliverance minister – and to Midwest regional prayer coordinator for a large international ministry. These days you can usually find Susan soaking in her favorite hot springs pool, reading a book (or several), blogging, baking bread, or hanging out with her family and friends. You can get a free copy of Susan's upcoming book, "On the Way Home" by registering here.

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Miste Anders-Clemons March 27, 2014 at 3:31 am

Nicely done.


Susan Schiller March 27, 2014 at 5:10 am

Thanks for coming by, Miste 🙂


Kellie March 15, 2014 at 2:44 pm

What a beautiful account of gratitude, living in the moment, and having compassion and appreciation for creation. This really teaches how we can live more fully.


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