Only Extravagant Fools Find Provision In their Problems
By: Susan Deborah Schiller
I went into the canyon last evening, to my singing place high up on the cliffs, in the middle of tall sage brush that protects me from being seen by traffic.
The roaring river, so full of Spring run off from the snowy mountains, delights me. I asked the river to speak to me and she said, "I want to know You." So I began singing, "I want to know You. I want to hear Your voice. I want to know You, Lord." My body began to dance as I lost myself in the Song… this song of my heart.
Isn't that why we are here, to really know God in the depths of human passion? To experience His love, peace, and joy in the midst of this world's pain and sorrow?
Down below I watched the foamy white water splash on top of the rocks, and I heard God's voice saying,
"I am establishing you in peace, Little One."
Oh, I live to hear His voice! Listening to His heartbeat puts me into the rhythm of life. In His peaceful way I sensed Papa God wants me to know WHO Peace is, and that Peace comes from within me. Peace is with me even in the turmoil of this external life and the injustice that so often happens.
Like the boulders and rocks in the river bed causing turbulence as the water rushes down the mountains, so my problems and worries cause the River of God within me to splash, foam, and fill the air with praise as only a River can do.
Someone once accused me of being a pagan and still does, but Psalm 19 says it all, concerning the universe having a voice through the stars, the sun, the moon….
Psalm 19 The Message (MSG)
A David Psalm
19 1-2 God’s glory is on tour in the skies,
God-craft on exhibit across the horizon.
Madame Day holds classes every morning,
Professor Night lectures each evening.
3-4 Their words aren’t heard,
their voices aren’t recorded,
But their silence fills the earth:
unspoken truth is spoken everywhere.
My closest friends are each undergoing the same trials as I am. I believe we are a picture of the Bride of Christ who is being washed and cleansed of all spots, stains, and wrinkles.
We are vulnerable – naked and unashamed – with each other. My friends are highly intuitive, spiritual, and see beyond the natural; they see into me. I see into them. The world rejects us and treats us like monsters. The ones who are most critical of me are those who are tied closely to religion… to Christianity as it is today.
I admire people who have endured the worst. What pure souls are coming out of these extreme trials of faith! I commonly hear this refrain from their lips: "I only want to know Christ. To hear His voice and to follow Him is my only desire." Our eyes are on Him alone.
My closest friends are of the most deeply wounded kind. They are mentally tortured with dire physical and financial consequences… one of them died, as a result. Two of them recently lost everything, even their home. One is homeless. Another fights physical pain without healthcare. Another has all the comforts this world affords but she has lost her position, her ministry, her spouse, and sometimes it even feels her sanity.
Yes, I have heard this from all of my friends…. we feel like we are losing our sanity.
That's what it feels like, my friend. If you're like us, and your world has turned upside down because you are a truth seeker, it feels like you are the one going insane, when really you are finding the deeper peace hidden below the surface of this world's system. You are finding provision in the problem. You may just be an extravagant fool!
I sense a New Day is upon us, that there is a great reversal… the first will be last and the last will be first. I will write this into my Full Moon declarations and into the prayer ties I will be making today.
Yes, there is a full moon this Thursday… ancient people used to plant crops, start businesses, and organize their lives around the phases of the Moon. More and more science and religion are blending together, no longer at war. Maybe I will share more on this for a later post.
As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord. And if that means dancing on a cliff, listening to the River, and singing with all my heart, "I want to know You. I want to hear Your voice. I want to know You, Lord…." then hey, I will be a fool for Him.
In fact, I will be an extravagant fool. I will find provision in these problems, like an Easter egg hunt. And I welcome you to join me!
With all my love,
Susan Schiller knows how it feels to lose everything: marriage and family, church and reputation, finances and businesses, and more. Susan's upcoming, interactive memoir, "On the Way Home," tells the story of how she came to be known as "the most abused woman" her counselors had yet met and how she is learning to navigate to freedom and fullness.
Today Susan helps people write their life stories, unearthing the treasures of their past and sowing them into their future, creating new family legacies.
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