A Meditation for Those who Feel Lost in the Darkest Night of their Soul
By: Kimberly Dimick
We all hope at the darkest moments of our life that our faith would shine or this strength would come so we could smack some demons around.
I have found that our faith shines AFTER we get to the other side. We our dumbfounded by everything God did to step in and rescue us and save us from what should have taken us out.
God will act on our behalf when we feel we can not think straight or act on our own behalf at all.
We are left to His mercies toward us and NOTHING else. We have nothing to offer only crying out and beating our chest. Suddenly, Jesus speaks right in the middle of our mortification, desperation and humiliation…… "Bring my daughter to ME!!"
This is how we find REST. When we give up so utterly and ask nothing but to lay down. When we fall down in a heap, we land in green pastures by some miracle. He MAKES me to lie down.
He is magnifying Himself over you. His heart is swelled up with compassion for you, a fiery passion that moves God to act.
It is our human frailty when trauma overwhelms us to go numb and shut down. Yet, there is a purpose in shutting down. God takes over and proves that He is WHO He says He is.
There is no room left for anything you can possibly do anymore sweet daughter of God. It is ALL God.
At these times, it is normal to first respond with fear. We think our ears are dull because of some lack on our part but this is not true. We get scared because we cannot hear anything at all that makes sense. The sounds are muffled and voices garbled so much we cannot discern what is what. The noise and voices in our head confuse us to the point, they neither dissuade or convince us of anything. We strain to understand but the more intently we try to listen the less we hear.
This is because your head is buried in God's chest. He has pulled you in, holding you so close to Himself, that any sounds that startle you are drowned out by His heartbeat. As He holds you, tighter and tighter…..slowly,….slowly,………you calm down….nothing else matters.
He is enlarged above everything and everyone and it is no concern of yours as you can only hear your Papa's beating heart of desire and love for you.