A Page from My Journal Susan Deborah Schiller Divorce is a torrent of treacherous waters, threatinging to tip me into a sea of despair. A smear campaign (again???) tempts me to doubt myself, to blame myself, and to miss hearing God's voice. So I am here writing…. waiting…. Most of all, I want to hear […]


How to Help a Survivor Get Over the Trauma & Grief By: Susan Deborah Schiler Surviving sociopathic or narcissistic abuse is a challenge the majority of us do not understand. The survivor is usually a female and she feels all alone. The months leading up to and following her escape are perilous. The sociopath moves […]


Naked and Unashamed By: Susan Deborah Schiller I have decided to get naked. I removed all the outerwear that my culture told me would cover my shame. I don't even know where the shame began, except it appeared when I was very little. It made me painfully shy. I knew in my heart I was […]


Choosing Love Today

What Love Looks Like…. Susan Deborah Schiller My journal, January 4, 2016 Father, my soul is deeply grateful and satisfied. I am wealthy in good relationships. To be loved and to love is the meaning and essence of real life… abundant life.  Yeshua showed us how to live a Kingdom lifestyle, by choosing love every […]

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In Case of Sudden Disaster, Grin!

In Case of Sudden Disaster, Grin! By: Susan Deborah Schiller "I'm grooming you to grin in the face of disaster," said Papa God as I made my daily fear-dump in a worn out leather journal. Escaping a cult-church and an abusive husband at the same time had left me isolated, wrestling the growing pack of […]

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The Avengers are Arising

The Avengers are Arising By: Susan Deborah Schiller With millions of Christians around the world, who have been given all authority on earth and a commission to "go" and set things right on earth, where are the real avengers? Why is the earth still burdened with inequality, injustice, and pain?  Why are we so prone to […]

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Neuroscience Behind Pathological Love Relationships

In the PTSD Zone: The Anti-Happiness Plague Have you stepped down from a career? Feel like your life will never be normal again? Unable to take normal environmental noise and stress anymore? Are you asking, "What happened to me – I can't think straight anymore!" Do you have feelings of having lost identity? Are you […]

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Nothing is Ever Forgotten or Overlooked

You're Never Alone, Never Abandoned, Never Forgotten By: Susan Deborah Schiller I awakened from a dream in which I learned a valuable lesson from my mentor, Michael Roads (who in waking life teaches the main message of "choosing love"). In the dream, Michael was giving me a practical hands-on test – one that I had […]

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My Manifesto for a Life Beyond Fear

My Manifesto for a Life Beyond Fear By: Susan Deborah Schiller My intention is to life a love-based life beyond fear – to choose Love every moment of every day. In this life, my love of nature – mountains, rivers, hills, animals, solitude and quiet – are clearly revealed. My Father's love is clearly visible in my […]

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Rock Solid

Rock Solid By: Susan Deborah Schiller There's a plan, a provision for every contingency, and a purpose for all the pain. God is making something beautiful out of your ashes. He's making you rock solid. This is a promise – a truth – I have been standing on for over two decades, and even today as […]

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This Astonishing Light

This Astonishing Light By: Susan Deborah Schiller There is a genocide happening today. It's a mass murder of dreams, visions, and the destinies of people who, like I once did, feel "dead" inside. It's like they are moving through life doing all the right things, but missing out on what they are created to be and […]

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Having the Time of My Life

What if you could have the time of your life, even in the midst of a great trial? There is one earth creature that is forever joyful, and that is the dolphin. I've been studying dolphins, you see, because God led me to heart healing through them. Dolphins are leading me into a healing that […]

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Be the Heroine of Your Life

Be the Heroine of Your Life By: Susan Deborah Schiller It's 2026 and from that future perspective, I write a letter to my younger self in 2016…. Dearest Susan, You are a heart scribe, and your words have been released like arrows on the tension of the Lord's bow string. With each story published, souls […]

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Finding the Priceless Pearl

Finding the Priceless Pearl By: Susan Deborah Schiller Underneath the pain and grief lies your greatest blessing. A pearl of great price is formed layer upon layer. Abandonment floods the soul with a priceless opportunity to choose to see beyond the pain. Rejection's relentless persecution and torment crush the soul, but yet you choose to […]

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Creating Beauty out of Chaos

Creating Beauty out of Chaos By: Susan Deborah Schiller Photo Credit Chaos… descending upon an elementary school in Oklahoma where children huddled, terrified and battered by an horrific tornado. Children and teachers dead. In Ohio, three teenage girls kidnapped and held captive for ten years just a few feet away from good people. In Florida, a […]

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My Story – The Mental Motor for My Life

How I Tell My Story Powers My Life for Good or for… By: Susan Deborah Schiller I bonded with that old truck pictured above. We had some adventures together, let me tell you! In some ways, this Dodge cummins taught me how to keep going, even beyond the sabotage of smear campaigns, Stockholm Syndrom, gaslighting and […]

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Beyond Surviving: Favor as a Lifestyle

Growing in God's Favor By: Susan Deborah Schiller In between dreaming and waking, in a vision I was deep within the enemy's camp and I overhead Satan talking about God's downtrodden children. He was saying, "It's because they don't believe in the FAVOR of their God anymore – that He longs to deliver them. They just […]

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When it Seems Impossible to Go On

How Will We Make it through the Night? By: Susan Deborah Schiller Snippets from the writing of Brennan Manning "When tragedy makes its unwelcome appearance and we are deaf to everything but the shriek of our own agony, when courage flies out the window and the world seems to be a hostile, menacing place, it […]

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She will LAUGH, for she fears no one and nothing!

She Fears No One and Nothing! By: Kimberly Dimick These words, like flaming missiles, are prayed and declared on behalf of a woman who has overcome so much, and yet faces more battles on the pathological co-parenting front. She feels weak, but together we are mighty! The end result of her trials is a princess who […]

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The Double Portion

Today I am working on an exercise in meeting my Thriver. I imagine a bridge and on the other side is the new version of myself, the new person I am becoming. I ask her questions and get to know her better… and I ask her to help me transition from fear-based living to a […]

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